Background

So I thought maybe I should put a little more background on this amazing journey :) I have been married to my husband Jake for almost three years now but together for close to eight. We have been through so much in such a short period of time. I lost my dad when I was 17 and me and Jake had just gotten together. He was so amazing through it all he really is such a great guy. Not soon after I lost my brother in law that left behind my older sister and her two kids with one on the way. Then again lost my grandmother not too long after that. Its been a long crazy road. To watch my husband deal with me going through all those losses and then stepping up to be there for my sister to take out her trash and watch him fix my mom and sisters cars it was just amazing. He is so selfless and I feel really lucky to have a man like that. If you could see him with my Pitbull which has been our baby for now, you can see he is going to be the best daddy in the world. Well not too long after we were together maybe a couple years we decided to start trying and try we did! We went for about 7-8 months before I started to get worried. I thought that I just knew it was something wrong with me and it was all my fault. We gave up for a while because really we were too young back then anyways and not in the best place. That adds to my gratefulness of this journey also. I have wanted a baby for so long now that its not that it doesn't not hurt but I have come to terms with what is going on and its okay because I now see the bigger picture and there is one and it is beautiful. After maybe another year goes by we finally go get things checked out. I pass with flying colors. My husband ended up having a very low count of everything and it broke my heart to see his pain. I hated that I couldn't do anything I couldn't fix this it was beyond both of us. Now two things  can happen after you hear this you can let it eat you away and tare what was once a great couple apart or it can make you see everything in a way you never would have seen before. It can make you so much closer to the people you love. It can do many great things if you deal with it in the right way. Now everyone is different and has different things going on I'm talking about my life and what happened with it so keep that in mind lol :) Anyways so here we are five years later Two IUI's under our belt and going full force with our first IVF. I'm positive and I'm feeling really good about it either way if it works AMAZING if it doesn't, well we will have a baby one day no matter how it gets here by us or adoption whatever life has is store were ready and waiting!