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Wednesday, March 25, 2015

4 months old!!

Ahhh my little boy is starting to be such a big boy!! I know every mom is always like I cant believe it but it really is crazy. One day you have this tiny little newborn and all the sudden you have this baby that acts like such a big kid and it just all happens so fast. Well mr Aiden is exactly four months old today he has his check up on friday I cant wait to see how much he has grown im betting this boy is at least 17 lbs he sure loves his momma milk. I spent such a long time researching when to start solids and everything is just such a joke no one even knows when the best time is I feel like its all just a bunch of crap. So I threw out all the research and started watching him and letting him tell me when he was ready well he can pretty much sit up by himself and he has been grabbing at our food and I just could tell he at least wanted to see what all the good smells were about. So we made some organic carrots and let him try them and he absolutely loved it. He definitely has lots his reflex and was eating and swallowing the food. How do I know this for sure well his next few dirty diapers had all the proof! He is not getting much though maybe a tbl or two and its not ever day either. He is drinking the same amount of milk as he was before maybe even more this 4 month growth spurt is no lie! I am glad I just went with my instincts on it though he is for sure ready to start tasting some real food but in no way is it going to be replacing his nursing feeds. I cant believe how smart he is getting he has been playing with his toys for weeks now and loves to stick everything in his little mouth. He can even turn the noisemaker toys so that they will make the noises its just crazy I feel like he is so small to be learning everything like that already humans are truly amazing beings. We got him a jumparoo and he loves it he goes crazy in it talking and hitting all the toys making them light up and sing. I swear I show him how to do things once and he remembers. Sleep is still sad days in this home this boy likes his night feedings a lot! I am still feeding him three sometimes four or more times a night luckily he goes right back to sleep after but I sure cant wait until we can cut out a couple of them. We had a few hard days with naps once he figured out how to roll both ways. I would lay him down for a nap and he usually would just put himself to sleep but those few days he would just roll and roll and roll and not go to sleep at all it was terrible! Now he seems to be over it and will nap again but it seems like he is into a 30 minute nap habit now. I am sure its just because of how much his little brain is growing and it must be hard to deal with all this new stuff happening. I love this little boy so much and although I miss sleeping all night I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

The dreaded M word

I have been very fortunate up until this point when it came to breastfeeding. My little man knew right away what to do right at the start we had to use a nipple shield for the first two weeks and after that I tried to put him on without and we never looked back. I never got the cracked nipples and sure it hurt a little at first until they got toughened up but other then that it was smooth sailing milk came in on day three and all was well. That is until last thursday and I woke up with a rock hard lump in my right breast. I thought oh I must have just not had him empty it enough. I tried to get him to eat for a while on it but it did not go away and I was sooo tired I just went back to sleep and thought I would worry about it in the morning. A few hours later I woke up shivering to death I was sooo cold but I could tell I felt extremely hot I took my temp and sure enough it was around 103 I thought I was going to die sounds drastic but its true I had never felt so terrible in all my life and it only took hours to feel that sick. I woke up and tried to pump and pump to get the clog out but to no avail. I took the hottest shower I could and massaged it until I had bruises. I pretty much tried everything I could think of to take care of it without having to get on medication I did everything all the natural things you could think of and I just cried my little heart out that I couldnt get it to go away by 48 hours I was done I was miserable beyond belief and trying to take care of my little boy was just soo hard I felt so bad I could barley get him out of his crib let alone play with him. So to the dreaded doctors I went and sure enough I had full blown mastitis. I would never wish this upon anyone it was by far the worst infection I have ever had and now im on antibiotics I feel much better but im scared to death its going to come back I am terrified it will. I also thought I was running out of milk and was just so so sad with my body. I know I was doing too much and needed to slow down little man still wakes 3-4 times a night if not more so sleep is not good but I handle it well and can function without much but its obvious my body still needs it more then my mind must. I am taking probiotics along with the antibiotics hopefully they can battle it out and I still get some of my good bacteria. I am so afraid for my little man to get thrush from them but he has been fine so far so im praying he is handling it okay. I am now trying to take extra care of my body and also my mind I need to eat better sleep more and stress less and hopefully this will never ever happen again. There are lots of exciting things coming up though im excited that spring is finally here and warm weather is coming! Also my little boy will soon be four months old and with that comes a lot of new exciting milestones I cant wait to share what he is already doing and we are waiting for his new jumparoo to come in the mail he is going to love it. Well that is what I have been up to this past week no fun but cant wait for all the new stuff that is about to come with my boy hope everyone is doing well.