Getting there

Life has been pretty busy and hectic these last couple weeks. Its been a nice distraction and has made the days go by quicker. Today marks 35 whole weeks being pregnant and I still can't even imagine what its going to be like to have a baby. We had quite the weekend this past one. I had my work baby shower on Friday and it turned out amazing all I had to do with this one was show up and it was such a relief to not have to plan and buy and do everything. My family shower I pretty much threw the whole thing because my family just does not have much money and it was fun to do it all but it was a lot my back hurt really bad for like three days after. This one was just simple and easy it was nice to be able to celebrate with my co workers they were with me through so much of the journey. I would have to take shots at work and leave all the time and of course I would be all hormonal and crazy and they would help support me the whole way. It turned out just great and we have more then enough things for this spoiled little boy. So now on to saturday night you never think how difficult it will be to have sex when you're almost nine months pregnant I just never thought about it before I had hard enough time imaging ever getting pregnant so anything past that part I never really thought much of. So here we are trying to figure out way to get the deed done and be comfortable which is just no easy task right now lol. Anyways we always manage to figure it out and well had a good night fast forward to around midnight. I woke up and felt really wet so went to the bathroom to check and my underwear had soaked through I thought hmm how weird but just could be the leftover from a fun night. Well cleaned up went back to bed woke up around 3am and same thing now is when I started to worry. It has never been this much of a mess before so I try to go back to sleep and wake up around 7 and it freaking happens again there goes me in freak out mode thinking my water is leaking!! We get up and get ready then throw the car seat in the car and all we had packed was his bag which we threw in the car too. Got to the hospital and let them know what may be going on. We got admitted and had a nice nurse come in and ask all the questions and then go back to get some tests. Well thank goodness the tests confirmed I was not leaking amniotic fluid!!! It was insane thinking we may just be having a baby we just were so not prepared for him to be here yet and while it was exciting thinking about meeting him already I am thankful he is going to get to grow some more. They checked me and I am not dilated at all which is good to hear but I am already almost 50% effaced which is exciting I will be full term in two more weeks only and I just cant even believe it. So who knows I dont care when he decides to come as long as he is going to be healthy and its on his time. I will tell you that he is very very low so low its hard to walk around we went to the pumpkin patch with my nieces and nephew and im sure people were thinking I was going to be having a baby right then and there! I was walking really funny and squeezing my husbands arm and hands ha ha we were getting some funny looks but there really is a lot of pressure on my cervix right now and im hoping its because he is head down and getting ready to go. I have my appointment next week which I will be 36 almost 37 weeks and they will check me again and we will see what is going on downtown. I am so excited to be here at this point its just so surreal I dont even know what to do with myself lately.

33 weeks!!!!

Things have been going great so far I still would count myself very lucky. We made it through IVF got pregnant made it past the subchorionic blood clot and made it past the 12 week mark. Now here we are 33 weeks along and we have a healthy growing baby boy and I just feel so happy even with the scary cord thing that happened we have come so far and made it past so many obstacles to get here I am just so grateful. I see myself in the mirror now at 8 and half months pregnant and I still cant believe its me sometimes I wake up and think maybe it was all a really good dream then I feel him moving all over and its just so surreal still. I feel like im grateful in a way for having to fight so hard for him I would never see things the way I do without having had to go through that and its clear the differences it has made when I talk to my friends that got pregnant so easy most on accident. I am happy for this insight and the way it has shaped me as a mother. I already appreciate so much more then so many women I know and I am thankful for that. We got our maternity photo shoot done and it turned out so amazing I have waited a long time to get to this point and never even knew if it would come it was such a beautiful day and the pictures so far ones we have seen turned out perfect. My little boy is getting so strong some of his movements have now become painful and its just amazing to watch his whole body move around in there I think he is going to run out of room really fast these days. I just cant wait until we get to see him and hold him in our arms its going by so fast I know he will be here before we even know it. Soon we are going to get the carseat installed and start packing our bags and it still just blows me away I cant believe its us that is going through this and experiencing all these amazing things. According to the bump.com he is the size of a duranian fruit im not sure what that is but by the way he feels in there it must be pretty big already. He weighs around 4.5 to 5.8 pounds he is a little guy like us so im betting were around the 4.5 mark and is over 17 inches long wow!! This has been the most amazing time of my life and sadly im already thinking and not going to lie worrying about a future sibling. Is he ever going to get one how hard will we have to fight for another one? I feel so incredibly lucky to only have had to do two IUI's and two full cycles of IVF to get this little miracle I know it wasn't the easiest but it didn't take 3 or 4 or who knows how many it could have taken to get him. I just hope that the future wont be too hard of a battle for us and we get as lucky as we did this time.