33 weeks!!!!

Things have been going great so far I still would count myself very lucky. We made it through IVF got pregnant made it past the subchorionic blood clot and made it past the 12 week mark. Now here we are 33 weeks along and we have a healthy growing baby boy and I just feel so happy even with the scary cord thing that happened we have come so far and made it past so many obstacles to get here I am just so grateful. I see myself in the mirror now at 8 and half months pregnant and I still cant believe its me sometimes I wake up and think maybe it was all a really good dream then I feel him moving all over and its just so surreal still. I feel like im grateful in a way for having to fight so hard for him I would never see things the way I do without having had to go through that and its clear the differences it has made when I talk to my friends that got pregnant so easy most on accident. I am happy for this insight and the way it has shaped me as a mother. I already appreciate so much more then so many women I know and I am thankful for that. We got our maternity photo shoot done and it turned out so amazing I have waited a long time to get to this point and never even knew if it would come it was such a beautiful day and the pictures so far ones we have seen turned out perfect. My little boy is getting so strong some of his movements have now become painful and its just amazing to watch his whole body move around in there I think he is going to run out of room really fast these days. I just cant wait until we get to see him and hold him in our arms its going by so fast I know he will be here before we even know it. Soon we are going to get the carseat installed and start packing our bags and it still just blows me away I cant believe its us that is going through this and experiencing all these amazing things. According to the bump.com he is the size of a duranian fruit im not sure what that is but by the way he feels in there it must be pretty big already. He weighs around 4.5 to 5.8 pounds he is a little guy like us so im betting were around the 4.5 mark and is over 17 inches long wow!! This has been the most amazing time of my life and sadly im already thinking and not going to lie worrying about a future sibling. Is he ever going to get one how hard will we have to fight for another one? I feel so incredibly lucky to only have had to do two IUI's and two full cycles of IVF to get this little miracle I know it wasn't the easiest but it didn't take 3 or 4 or who knows how many it could have taken to get him. I just hope that the future wont be too hard of a battle for us and we get as lucky as we did this time.

Follow up

Thank goodness for my awesome midwife!! We went to our appointment with the specialist and did a very thorough ultrasound. I am happy to say the cord is not actually around his little neck that it really is only around the back and kind of hangs down on the shoulders at one point we even seen it fall off the shoulder and just float around. The doctor said he is not worried one bit and he wouldn't have been worried if it was around it just once they would have just monitored me a little more closer and maybe have done some NST. I feel so relieved I seriously didnt sleep for the four nights before the appointment finally came I was so scared I would make it tighter somehow. My poor husband hated seeing me so worried I would just start crying and it was just really hard I feel like a lot of it comes from how hard it was to get him im just so scared to lose him we are so close to getting to finally meet him I was just distraught. I am so thankful everything is fine and my plans for a natural birth are still one of course anything can change but for now everything is fine he is healthy and strong and I just cant wait to meet him. We went on a little last vacation and got a cabin in the Colorado mountains it was so pretty and peaceful. We took some cavern rides that went way up to the top of the mountains and it was just beautiful. We stayed right next to the Colorado river and went on some fun hikes. Trying to hike 8 months pregnant is something else though ha ha his little head is right on my cervix and it hurts to feel him bouncing it on it! We even took the dogs and they had a great time I think they thought we were moving in for good. We went to the giant mineral hot springs and it felt amazing I couldnt get in the hot one but they had one that was around 90-93 degrees and it felt awesome plus it was all cold and rainy so it was just very relaxing. We had a great time its so crazy to think here soon it wont just be us anymore I have enjoyed our time we had together to just be us as a couple and enjoy our marriage but im so ready for this new exciting chapter I cant wait for us to experience parenthood the holidays just seem so much better already. Today I am 31w2d getting so so close and thankful for each day he is growing strong inside.

Ten weeks left!!!!!!

Finally made it to the official countdown and could not be more excited! Today I am 30 weeks exactly it really has just flown by. My little boy is doing so good and growing strong he has started to move around so much more and I am definitely getting those kicks to the ribs I always heard about. We went this Saturday and got a 3D ultrasound and it was the most amazing thing ever to see his sweet little face like that. I almost felt like I cheated and peeked on him before we were supposed to ha ha but he looks so much like my husband it just made it so much more real. We also noticed his cord was wrapped around the back of his neck which honestly scared the hell out of me. The person who did the ultrasound is not a certified doctor or anything but did try to say not to worry and that it is really common. So of course I went home and went at it with doctor google. Turns out this is very common and happens in about 30% of pregnancies. Just something new I learn about everyday it seems but still even with that knowledge all I could think about was that cord going around the back of his neck and it was not even around the front of his neck but more looks like he was wearing it like a necklace that comes down in the front. So today I went to my midwifes and let them know my concerns and thankfully they also said they see this all the time and they deliver babies everyday with the cords sometimes wrapped even three times so while this did make me feel better I was still worried. They set me up with a peri thank goodness just to do a follow up and check blood flow to be positive all is well. It will be nice to get that reassurance she said she is mostly doing this for me to be at peace then because she is worried about anything but after all we went through she said she understands being scared about it. So Friday is that appointment then we took a few days off from work to go on a nice last time vacation I am not sure where yet but we do want to go do something one last time before this sweet little boy gets here. I cant believe time is going so fast now I cant wait to meet him and see his little face for reals. We pretty much have everything we need and his room is pretty well done. I just have to start to pack the hospital bag here and there and that just blows me away. We have only 70 days left until the due date I hope he decides to come a little early so we wont be in the hospital for Thanksgiving but whenever he decides to come im okay with. The holidays are going to be so much better I get so excited seeing all of the fall stuff just knowing that its getting closer and closer to when he will come.

28 weeks

Ahhh Seven months today and I cant even believe it. I feel so grateful to have come so far after such a rough journey. I still have dreams and wake up crying remembering the hard times and the what ifs. What if we never have a baby what if IVF never works. There were so many things and it was so hard to keep going. I am so thankful that we only had to do 3 IUI's and Two fresh IVF's to get this little boy. It used to seem like so much and it was in ways but to see so many others struggling and going on their third, fourth even fifth cycles it takes so much out of you to keep going like that I cant even imagine having to keep trying that many times but I would have without a doubt to make it to here eventually. We are all warriors for sure but once you make it here the gratitude you will have for that child is so much more than it ever could have been without the struggle to get here. I am grateful for every kick every single thing pregnancy brings I love it and I hear many of my friend complain non stop about things that they have no idea how lucky they are to even be experiencing its hard to hear but im just glad its not me thats like that and I can truly appreciate this miracle in ways they never would be able to comprehend. It does pay off I can tell you that it ways that are amazing and will forever be in the way you look at and raise your child. The struggle is real but the gratitude and appreciation are so much more. I am now for sure in the third trimester if I was not before. It feels good I have been lucky to not have many problems with being pregnant he is healthy and growing and so am I. My blood pressure is always low and my weight gain has been slow and steady . I go for my glucose test tomorrow hopefully all is well with that. I then have my 28 weeks appointment on thursday and hopefully I have continued to gain weight I can tell he is getting bigger I got my first kick to the rib and while it hurt it was also funny and welcoming. I can now feel body parts poking out I have no idea what they are but its amazing. *How far along: 28 weeks! *Baby's size: Eggplant!! *Baby's progress: 2.5 pounds and over 14 inches. *Weight gain: 113 slowly but surely! *Stretch marks: Boobs. *Sleep: Not too bad getting up to pee now a lot he likes to bounce around on my bladder. *Gender: Little man!!!!!!! *Movement: Lots of rolling and kicks. *Best moment of the week: Finally getting a baby shower of my own it was amazing. *Looking forward too: My baby shower here at work in a few weeks! *Food cravings:Its seems to hover around mexican food. *Labor signs: No thanks stay away please! *symptoms: Still lower back pain. *Workouts: Waiting for my treadmill this weekend! *What I miss: Alcohol lol sad but true! I was so excited to have my first baby shower over the long weekend and it turned out amazing. I was pretty ready for it to be over by the end of it though my back was really starting to hurt. We went with such a cute little man mustache theme and I thought it turned out so great. We got lots of gifts for him and it was awesome just seeing the support. We did the DIY onesies and everyone was so creative we got some really cute ones that I cant wait for him to wear.

3rd Trimester or is it?

I am so happy to have made it here! Now if I could just figure out where exactly here is ha ha. I have been told 26 weeks is the start of the third trimester and I have also heard 28 weeks is the start so im going to go with 27 weeks right in the middle and say that I have made it!! When I got the first squinter line that made me think I was really going crazy and seeing things I never could have imagined making it this far. Of course I hoped with all my heart I would get to take this baby home there are just so many obstacles and things that can happen that make it really hard to believe its actually going to happen. My little man is getting stronger everyday and he makes it very known I just am loving every part of being pregnant and feel so happy grateful for him. I am still feeling nervous I think I will feel that way until he is actually here safe in my arms. I had my first dream of him and it was amazing I just cant wait for it to be real! I have been going to my hypnobirthing classes it has been going so well I really am enjoying them and my husband is even liking them so that really helps. We have been to three so far and I really feel like its going to help me so much I have never felt so relaxed and been able to let go like that its been an awesome experience. Its definitely one of those things you have to keep practicing or it will not be very helpful so im trying to spend a good 30 min or more a day to practicing the techniques. I have been going much more slower down steps after that fall I guess your just so used to being able to run around like you always have that you just have to remember your body is not the same and is going to keep changing. My belly has really started to pop out and its just been so fun to watch him roll all around in it. We have our family baby shower this Saturday and its something I have always dreamed about I cant wait for it!! *How far along: 27 weeks! *Baby's size: A head of cabbage!! *Baby's progress: Over 2 lbs and 14 inches. *Weight gain: 113 slowly but surely! *Stretch marks: Boobs. *Sleep: Not too bad besides these crazy dreams every single night. *Gender: Little man!!!!!!! *Movement: Getting much stronger loves to play at night. *Best moment of the week: Getting the baby shower stuff all figured out. *Looking forward too: His baby shower on Saturday! *Food cravings:Its seems to hover around mexican food. *Labor signs: No thanks stay away please! *symptoms: Still lower back pain. *Workouts: Nothing too crazy still getting a treadmill for my birthday on the sixth. *What I miss: Mojito's.

A trip to L&D

So Thursday started off just awesome by me falling down my carpeted stairs on my butt. I slid down about five of them and had a sore butt and back but I didnt think too much of it really and finished getting ready for work. Once I got to work I decided I better call my midwife and let them know just in case they wanted me to come for a check up or something. Well apparently its a huge deal to fall even if its not a bad one and your butt takes the brunt of it. They told me I needed to go the the hospital asap for monitoring. So luckily I work for the hospital so I just ran up to L&D and figured it would be no big deal they got me all hooked up. Baby boy looks good great heart rate so I was relieved to see that. Next thing I know nurse is coming in telling me I am going to have to stay for 24 hours because I have an irritable uterus. So off to do my own research I go to see if it was this huge crazy ordeal they were making it out to be. Well its absolutely normal to have one and the contractions were barley even ones that could count baby boy was so active every time he bounced around it was showing a contraction on the monitor. I ended up letting them run a few tests and check my cervix. Tests came back negative for going into labor in the next two weeks and cervix was closed. The contractions were most likely just regular normal braxton hicks I could not even feel them. So after about 8 hours and being pressured to admit myself and take all these medications I signed the waiver to leave against medical advice. You would have thought the world was going to end because I was not letting them take everything over I seriously never want to go to the hospital again im terrified of what its going to be like to have this baby in one. Thankfully im going to a different hospital that is not so intervention friendly. Once I got home I stayed in bed for pretty much 24 hours just to be sure my body was doing what it should and now here I am today feeling great and little man is just kicking up a storm as usual. It was a terrible experience and im glad to be okay and more importantly he is okay and not coming anytime soon! I am going to have to be more careful with my steps though they really are slippery with the carpet my husband has even fallen down them. I cant wait for this little boy to get here we are planning the baby shower its happening Aug 30th I am so excited I can hardly stand it. His room is pretty much finished also I cant wait to post pictures it turned out amazing everything I had imagined. 25 weeks 5 days today going strong!!!

When you find yourself here

I could never even get myself to fully imagine what I would feel like when I would finally get here to be pregnant and everything that comes along with it. I honestly never knew if we would ever even make it. So to be here now at 24 weeks pregnant im just blown away by what we are getting to experience and dream. Every night I lay down for bed and this little boy just decides its time to really get things moving and just goes crazy. I am so happy to be able to experience something we wanted so badly and our lucky enough to have gotten. I often see a lot of posts that start out today with viable today or V day I just don't think I feel as excited about the so called viability day as others. I just don't think I feel any safer today then I have the entire time. I am of course completely grateful to have come so far but I just want so badly for him to keep growing strong and healthy in there that today just doesn't ease those fears at least for me. I am amazed at how far we have come though and all the things way he has already grown. Its been amazing to experience those mother hormones before he is even here it just all kicks in so hard and I feel so thankful im getting to experience them. I always wondered why pregnant women always had there hands on their bellies. I now find myself doing the same thing and for me at least its just because I love feeling him move it amazes me I think it always will. I sometimes just stare at my belly dancing around for hours and just laugh and smile. We have gotten the nursery pretty dang far already. My family keeps telling me to stop buying everything and wait for the baby shower but its so hard when you have already waited years to do this and now you get to I can't even help myself. I feel like he could not have come at a better time even though we wanted this so badly for years me and my husband have never been in a better place to have a child and to know its our son it just feels like this was always meant to happen any other way and it would not be him its just crazy in so many ways. I am so grateful to be here I could not even begin to express the gratitude I feel for him. *How far along: 24 weeks! *Baby's size: A freaking canteloup wow!! *Baby's progress: 1.3 lbs and 12 inches. *Weight gain: 111 whoo hoo finally getting somewhere! *Stretch marks: Boobs. *Sleep: Not too bad besides these crazy dreams every single night. *Gender: Little man!!!!!!! *Movement: All of the time now. *Best moment of the week: Getting the changing table set up and ordering the crib. *Looking forward too: Results of Anatomy scan everything looked great from what the tech said but appointment with midwife is on thursday so praying nothing has changed! *Food cravings:Tamales thanks to a cooking show that was on tv lol. *Labor signs: No thanks stay away please! *symptoms: My lower back has started to hurt pretty bad when I am on my feet for too long. *Workouts: Not too much yet just walking mostly still worried to do much other then that. *What I miss: Cold beer but im just fine without it. *Things that suck: I dont even know why this question is on here I dont think I will keep this one because how could anything suck at all right now life has been more amazing then ever. SNEAK PEEKS!!!