Karissa's Baby Due Date Countdown

Karissa's Baby Due Date Countdown

To get me to you

To Get Me To You Well I, I still can remember times When the night seemed to surround me I was sure the sun would never shine on me And I, I thought it my destiny To walk this world alone But now you're here with me Now you're here with me And I don't regret the rain Or the nights I felt the pain Or the tears I had to cry Some of those times along the way Every road I had to take Every time my heart would break It was just something that I had to get through To get me to you To get me to you Well I, I still can recall the days When I had no love around me Makes me glad for every day I have with you And I, I look in your eyes and know I'm right where I belong And I belong with you Always belonged with you And I don't regret the rain Or the nights I felt the pain Or the tears I had to cry Some of those times along the way Every road I had to take Every time my heart would break It was just something that I had to go through To get me to you To get me to you And if I could I wouldn't change a thing Wouldn't change a thing baby Because your love was waiting there for me Waiting there for me baby And I don't regret the rain Or the nights I felt the pain Or the tears I had to cry Some of those times along the way Every road I had to take Every time my heart would break It was just something that I had to get through To get me to you To get me to you by Lila McCann I think that is such an amazing song it makes me cry but its all so true and while he is not here in my arms yet he is on his way and I have been feeling his little kicks finally it all just is so amazing. I dont know what the future is going to bring but I hope its nothing but good times filled with love and happiness and an adorable little boy. I am 17 weeks four days pregnant today and im so thankful to have come this far. I am feeling pretty good these days still more tired then I used to be but other then that I feel pretty normal besides the little being that has invaded my stomach and is having a party in there. I felt him move for the first time last week and I even seen him poking my stomach out all funny when he was doing it. Fathers day my husband got to see it for the first time and we both just stared and I cried I have not actually cried to many times during the pregnancy I thought I would at ultrasound and different things but I think im just so shocked still and just so happy when we go to them that he is still there and growing as he should I dont have energy for tears happy or sad. Seeing him move was different it made it feel so real that he really is in there and he is going to be here in just a short 4.5 more months. When you wait your whole life for something like this and fight like hell to get it when its here its just hard to describe all the intense feelings. I just cant wait to meet this little man I cant wait to get bigger and feel him getting stronger this is all just so amazing and im so grateful to be here in this place right now its was all so worth it so so worth it.

Whats new

Not a whole lot actually which is a good thing I like things going easy and staying boring right now. I am feeling super tired today they say you get most of your energy back in the second trimester but I am still always so tired so I dont know who came up with that lol. It is pretty unreal how fast this is all going it blows my mind to think im already four months pregnant. Today I am 16w2d and yes every single one of those days count I want credit for those two extra days!! I cant believe how much baby boy has grown and what is all happening in there its so amazing. We have gotten a few outfits now and the clothes my friend gave me so were already getting a pretty good stash and I just cant get over opening that closet and staring at everything it makes me so happy. I am getting pretty impatient with movement though I really really really just want to feel him move I know it can be a few more weeks but I have friends tell me they have felt some movement by now and others say around 20 weeks im like okay Aiden I have been patient long enough ha ha just show me something but still nothing thats okay though it will come I just cant wait for the day it does. I think the animals are picking up on it now they can feel a big change is coming because they all decided they were all going to go bat shit crazy on us its been interesting between my cat getting so stressed out it caused a urinary infection and to my dogs not eating their food and instead eating anything and everything else they can find including raw dough which we had to induce vomiting to get out of her stomach ughhh its been madness but that is the only thing I can think of that has changed so we will see how it goes. I feel so blessed im going to be able to stay home and raise our son I get to quit my job and just focus on him and I just feel so happy we have this option after everything we went through to get him I dont want to miss out on anything I am counting down the days quite literally until he is going to be here. I am super excited that we almost have our entire stash of cloth diapers they are so damn cute and I cant wait to see his cute little bum in them. I took over my birth plan to my midwife yesterday for our 16 week appointment which went great and thought they were going to think I was a crazy lady but she was very supportive and agreed it was a very good start to one helped me make a few changes but I am super happy with it. I have finally gotten so excited and I am already so in love with this little boy I can hardly stand it waiting to meet him is like torture everyone tells me I will miss being pregnant and to enjoy it and I get it but I just want him here now in my arms safe and taking care of him its sooo hard to wait especially after finding out he was our little boy I have been so anxious for time to go fast. I was scared I wouldnt ever get to feel connected to him because of how afraid I was of everything at first but I was soo wrong I feel more connected to him then I ever thought was possible and im sure it will increase with the movement but I just talk to him all day like a crazy person and to just know your never alone like even when im driving to work in the mornings he is right there with me and its just amazing it really is. Well thats all I really have for now just happy things are going well thankful for this miracle and just hope things will turn out with a very happy ending I have a good feeling though.

Its A....

This was something I dreamed about and thought about long before we actually got here. Just thinking about it actually being your baby up on that screen and you and your husband anxiously waiting to see what the baby is going to be. We go to the studio on Saturday and I was just freaking out I could hardly contain myself I was just this huge jumble of nerves and excitement. Everyone told me it was a girl pretty much everyone told me this and I was just alone in thinking it was a boy then I started to have dreams about a little girl so I was just so confused. The tech started showing us the brain and showing us the fluid in the stomach saying the kidneys were already hard at work which was perfect. We got to see the little bladder with fluid also it was so amazing to see the baby so fully formed my husband couldn't believe how big it was already. Baby was measuring 14w6d we were 14w5d so just perfect I can not be more thankful for this little miracle. The cutest thing was watching them have the hiccups I was just blown away it was adorable watching them. So the tech goes okay now tell me what you think it is and went to the money shot. I just freaked out I knew it I so knew this was my little boy and I couldnt be more happy and excited. We are going to have a son I am just blown away and so so thankful for him. Today we are 15 weeks I cant wait for the rest to go by now I just want to meet him and see his little face without further ado meet Aiden Noah!!!!!

Joys

Now that we are fully into our second trimester I really am starting to feel so great. I feel so much more positive about everything and I have really started to be able to connect with the baby more. I was so scared going through IVF and all that was going to take all of this away from me with how scared I was when we first found out it worked. I have never been more scared of something my whole life it was such a surreal feeling I just didn't know what to do with it. I am feeling so happy these days and just very thankful to have come so far. They are not lying when they say the second trimester is the best one. I am not sick at all anymore and that has really helped with things. I still do get tired but its not as intense as it was at first. I am going to have to start updating my bump pictures because I FINALLY have a little tiny bump showing could be just because I am not working out like I am used to I just don't feel pressured to do it like I did before I am still doing them here and there but my focus is mostly on eating right and planning things right now. I so thought something was wrong with the baby like growth wise I am only 5 1" and weigh 103 lbs very tiny frame but I just thought that would make showing happen that much sooner so when everyone is like oh my gosh your so skinny it was starting to get to me. Thankfully everything is great and the baby is just fine I guess all those ab workouts were just paying off and holding it all in. Now my boobs are a totally different story my husband cant even believe how big they have gotten I started out a 36 B and I am barley fitting in 36 C right now I am sure I could fit into some D sizes with my tiny frame it looks like a got this huge boob job but I am not complaining lol. I think if they keep this up though I might start to look a little ridiculous ha ha. Today I am 14 weeks 3 days pregnant it just feels so amazing to be able to say this. The baby is so big already and looks just like a fully developed baby. I am SO excited about tomorrow we have our early gender scan at noon its so amazing to think we may be able to find out if we are going to have a son or a daughter I just cant even believe it I am so happy!!! It just makes all of this so much more real to me I have been doing research like a crazy person and have a pretty good birth plan already drawn up im sure it will change but I feel pretty good about what we want and I just hope the hospital is going to work with us if not they are going to have one crazy pregnant lady freaking out. We are doing stuff very differently then what it seems most do of course things can change and happen I am keeping that in mind but as long as things are going smooth I will make sure we are in charge and not the hospital because we don't want a lot of what they usually do happening to our baby. I may post what we have so far sometime but its very personal choices and I know a lot of people are just very opinionated about it which is fine but we paid a lot of money and went through hell to get this little baby im not about to let anyone do anything to it that we don't see fit. We made the first big buy and bought a baby swing I was so excited about this its an awesome one and it even lets you unhook the seat and turns into a baby bouncer so if baby falls asleep in the swing you don't have to wake them up to move them just pop out the seat and take it with you its seriously awesome and has great reviews we put it together and I just stare at it and just feel so happy to be in this place right now. I am totally freaking out about tomorrow I dont even know how to feel I am super excited for my husband to see the baby the last time he seen it was at nine weeks it barley had arm and leg buds and when I seen it at twelve weeks it had long legs and arms and was touching its sweet little face I cant imagine what it will look like at this one tomorrow he is going to just lose it I bet! Something I thought was cool It is a native Hawaiian belief that the placenta is part of the child. It is a tradition to plant the placenta with a tree, which then grows alongside the child. How crazy huh just thought that was a sweet fact we are actually going to have ours encapsulated I know gross crazy right but its so beneficial I have been doing research and found a great certified place to do this for us and the benefits are just amazing I am happy with this choice. The baby can officially hear us now which just blows me away Its so crazy they say they will react to your voice now and move and just can get to know you more at this stage. I told my husband watch your mouth now no negatives ha ha he has been so good with everything I have definitely not been an easy person to deal with lately these hormones are no joke I thought the injections made me a crazy bitch its nothing compared to this lol nothing. Well that is all for now cant wait to be back with a gender reveal Hopefully!!!!

The stash

This is what we have so far and I love it I am so excited for it thank you thank you whatever is out there looking out for us!!!!!

Starts of a cloth diaper stash One outfit we bought when we did the transfer must be the good luck outfit!!! Two onsies that are adorable Car seat cover Nursing cover Baby sling Belly bands First mothers day gift Picture frame Nursing pillow Yayyyy!!!!!!

My new baby!!

Well for now that is lol!! So my car was a Scion TC awesome car sporty fun sunroof and was pretty quick. Sad thing is I live in Utah and well you know the weather here sucks our winters are horrible and my fun pretty car was not so fun during the snow time. It actually really sucked to drive in and was very scary I got stuck multiple times during each winter. So my pretty much just had to have car when I was kidless with no known end in site was also only a two door not baby friendly at all. So we finally went out and got me and new one and oh my goodness I could not be more excited about what we got. Me and my husband have been BMW fans for such a long time but you know were not rich by any means and well those cars mostly seem to belong to people with a lot of money because well they cost a lot of money. Well we got one and didnt have to spend hundreds of thousands of dollars either it is sooo pretty and such a nice reliable car. We bought a 330xi all wheel drive it will be great in the snow it has four doors with lots of room it is going to be a great car for our family. We took it and showed my mom and she about died she was super happy for us though I am just thankful come this winter I will be safe my husband got his new truck last year and he will be safe that is what is most important. This baby is amazing though a lot of my friends and family our pretty jealous and not so happy you could tell but it is what it is and we deserve it we have been through hell and spent all our money on nothing but IVF and medications so to hell with all the people that cant be happy for us I just feel so much better knowing the baby is going to be safe! So officially into the second trimester I cant believe how fast its going now I feel like I need to get the whole nursery done asap but we have not even started I think I will wait until we know what were having for sure but we do plan to redo the entire room were using. We have been keeping the dogs in their and I just dont want the gross dogs to be the last ones all over the carpet and stuff so we will be ripping it out and putting all new stuff in. I cant wait for that time to come mostly I have been focusing on getting the cloth diaper stash going we pretty much know what were buying and have gotten a few things already. It was so cute teaching my husband how to use them he is going to be a pro in no time. I finally got the free belly bands and the free carseat cover the rest should be here tomorrow its so fun to go look at baby stuff we used to do it just for fun before when we were doing IVF it was nice for us to check it out and just get excited for when we would finally be able to shop there but now to be able to actually buy stuff for a real baby that is OURS is just amazing I cant wait to find out in two weeks what this little one is. I am 13 weeks today so crazy to think about whenever I want to hear the heartbeat its super easy to find and nice in strong around the 160's I just love my doppler! Well I will leave you with pictures of my pretty new ride ahh so excited and happy!!